Saturday, April 21, 2018

He's big. I'm little.

Andrew and I went to the UT Planetarium with some friends and I was struck by something, the grandeur of the universe. I remember going to the Planetarium when I was a kid, but somehow it didn't really phase me... until now. I sat there under the stars, hearing about each of the planets JUST in our solar system and stood in awe. 

If earth was any closer to the sun, we would burn up; any further away and we would freeze. We have to be at just the right tilt and spin at just the right speed. Our planet is the only one that can sustain life and its not even that big. 1,300,000 earths can fit inside the sun! 
 Eta Aquarid Fireball Meteor with the Milky Way Photo by Mike Taylor

Earth is one of the smallest planets in our solar system. Our solar system is small in the Milky Way. The Milky Way is small in our universe and here I am, just a small person on what SEEMS like a huge planet. And all of this, GOD created. It takes my breathe away.

I stand with David and say, "What is man that you are mindful of him?" Small me, on a small planet, in a small solar system in YOUR universe that is too big to measure.  

Lately, I have allowed the bigness of God to sink in. His character, abilities and magnitude to clear the fog that tells me that things are impossible. Every time I start to hyperventilate over fundraising or moving, kids growing up or parenting, I allow the awesomeness of God to hit me like a tidal wave. All the while letting his love rush over my tired and weary heart like a stream flooding a parched desert. Even in his majesty, he loves little me, wants to hear from me and will catch my tears in a bottle. 

So when He speaks to me, "Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation? Tell me, if you understand." I will answer with Job, "I know that you can do all things; no purpose of yours can be thwarted... surely I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know." 

Lord my God, You are very great.